Talk about a lesson in rejection. Golly gosh dangit.
After a month of hardcore job hunting... I decided to get a little more creative. I started applying for nanny positions and found a family I loved.
Ha, right.
Damn economy. Just like anything else- too many nannys, too little time. :(
is fate trying to tell me something?
i've applied to a million jobs in Florida, a thousand in St. Louis, a few hundred to my beloved Boston, and maybe fifty or so in various areas of California...
...practically the only companies calling me are, where?!
California.
hmmmmmmmm...
does anyone have any frequent flyer miles they'd like to donate?
i leave in a week.
yup, a week from today i'll be sitting on a plane, hoovering somewhere over the Atlantic ocean, heading back to Miami.
but i can't come to terms with what i'm feeling exactly.
as excited as i am about getting back to my life... (playing with my Mia, enjoying the sun, getting a new job, etc etc) i'm really sad i'm leaving.
obviously because it was a great experience... i mean, to know a different way of living, to travel, to realize you can survive in a city (at least a week) without even knowing the language, to drink a bottle of wine in the middle of the city, to live (for three months) as an immigrant.... ;)
i guess i've learned a lot, and i'm sure i've changed a bit for the better.
maybe that age old saying is right, in some way, afterall...
"...with every end is a new beginning."
"Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It's not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year, it's an event, big or small . . .something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories . . . what's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember that amid all the CRAP are a few things really worth holding on to." - Grey's Anatomy
>"I do not choose to be a common (wo)man. It is my right to be uncommon... if I can. I seek opportunity... not security. I do not wish to be a kept citizen, humbled and dulled by having the state look after me. I want to take the calculated risk; to dream and to build, to fail and succeed. I refuse to barter incentive for a dole. I prefer the challenges of life to the guaranteed existence; the thrill of fulfillment to the stale calm of utopia. I will not trade freedom for beneficience nor my dignity for a handout. I will never cower before any master nor bend to any threat. It is my heritage to stand erect, proud and unafraid; to think and act for myself; enjoy the benefits of my creations and to face the world boldly and say, this I have done."
